it is alarming how parallel our situations are (double heartbreak, wanting to disappear).

honestly heartbreak fucking sucks. and it’s even worse when it’s from the same person again and again, bc there’s the double punch of heartbreak and then how could this happen again? how could i be so stupid? why again? why? why why why? but beating urself up abt it isn’t productive – ik u didn’t say that ur blaming urself or anything, but just in case u were, then it’s not you. i know it seems strange and terrible and that ofc it’s ur fault. but it’s really not. it’s a whole variety of factors and if it’s the same person being horrible and heartless to u, then it’s probably them.

for getting over heartbreak – time. so much time. take a nap. take a long, hot shower. read poetry or a book. listen to some slow music with pretty lyrics that make u think or feel or just pause. take a walk with a loved one. write or draw or play an instrument. use a creative outlet. ik that’s super cheesy and cliche but honestly writing and playing piano rly help me w releasing my emotions.

and don’t disappear. bc then that person wins, and if nothing else, if not to prove ur own worth and self love and ability to rise above and move on, then just keep going and be visible and present out of pure spite. (or the former reasons, but the latter works if all else fails)

don’t forget that i believe in u. and i am here for u. i am always here for u. 💖