o man. my pal. i am so sorry that ur feeling like this :’( and i’m really really sorry that your dog died. that’s horrible. i think that…. i don’t know. u said that it’s pretty scary / painful for u to draw, but i think that it might be helpful and almost cathartic for u to draw. i understand ur fear, but i think u just have to kind of force urself to cast it aside or embrace it or just smash through it and draw. any thoughts u have when u draw, scary though they may be, r necessary in the process of trying to figure out ur current emotional state and how to make it better.
to create is to feel. and to create is to release emotion and bring yourself to a better place. (at least that’s what i always feel like when i feel really just confused and emotionally turbulent) (in which case i write) (no matter how shitty it is i just write and i create and for me personally it helps)